title: to shadow in the mirror

for the shadow in the mirror you only need the nerve to do so. do not think about how will eventually. at least, you have honest on yourself. trust and believe, seperih any honesty will be better than happiness created a lie. "still remember this day, wid?" asked yono to the girl hooded purple across there. "wait a minute Yes Tor," said widya without answered questions yono. "want to install the headset first, the sound brother small if video call like this," up widya. long enough to yono wait until widya came back in the screen display his mobile phone. he knows, certainly need time to widya prepare the best answer to a simple question from him that. "sister what's new?" asked widya for just a calming heart flare. three years ago he must be willing to mengikhlaskan her lover go along another woman. "thank God is good, you own what news, wid?" yono also tried to melt the atmosphere awkward sudden present. in fact, since the small already know each other to finally decided to dating for seven years, certainly understand the nature and the nature of each time talking like this. "ningrum healthy, Kak?" back questions chitchat out of the oral widya. far in his heart, he wanted to all say much talked about many things, about the struggle to forget yono and all the wonderful memories time with him. there are missed whispered in his heart, want it back tears in embrace men simple that looks more charming with the look on the face of adult it. "thank God today healthy, yesterday a bit of fever," replied yono while calling the little girl that somehow can happen veiled purple as well. "come here Princess, will you meet an Angel? she is so beautifull." and a half minutes later, the little girl sitting on lap yono. "are you serious, dad?" with the accent balitanya he asked his father. "say Hello to him," up yono while showing screen HP face start Red in it. "Hello, are you an Angel?" and instantly questions with accent balitanya make yono and widya laugh the same. there is a sense of happy enveloped heart widya. but, he soon realized if it was an error. he began to reorganize logic and his heart. but, still he could not lie to himself. deeper widya staring at both the face behind the screen his mobile phone, smile they are similar. "similar once you." suddenly words glide only accidentally on the lips widya. "what is just now you say, wid? asked yono awareness blank stare of widya." Oh, nothing really, Kak. "widya know if the actual yono hear what's new he said. he knew this just a base basinya misfit only." bidadali namana siapah? asked little girl to widya after sound whispering of yono to teach her asked. "i'm not Angel, Princess." with accompanied by a smile as sweet as possible widya back answered questions little girl. "name aunt, widya, let's make friends, the name of host daughter who?" smile sweet very looks weird for her own. and, yono certainly know if smile made it look very funny. seen from the view that the switch and biting his lips to withhold laughter. he was a little shy and certainly very happy because he know, yono never forget will face difficult to smile, and tend bitchy to everyone. "name I ningrum aryu widya, aunt," replied yono knowing his can't menterjamahkan questions from widya. "what ningrum not brother teach Indonesian?" asked widya little disappointed. but deep inside her, he really happy because full name became a name for the child yono, lover length. "to sentences simple in daily life he understood, wid," he said. "ago, why is the name of that?" back widya railed questions to yono. "is not an issue his name is similar once with my name, Kak?" widya surprised by administering the child's name yono. widya ningrum is the name listed card identity birth. he don't know if the full name also be a name for the child yono. he was just a little get information on child birth yono two years ago from Ratna, friends of both. "the choice of aryu, and we both love with that name." yono rubbed soft forehead her started to fall asleep in his lap. "forgive our mistakes, wid." then, with a full Valentines yono kiss the intimate cheek chubi his son. apology from yono make heart widya volatile, seemed shortness and narrowed. want soon he excite anger, disappointment, and all the sense of sore he felt because yono opt married to aryu. he is very to know the woman, women who neighbors and friends since equally born in the same day, become a friend school of kindergarten to Elementary school, although thereafter be separated because aryu choose continuing education to boarding schools. women who always ask her to follow the study in mosque, women selfless teaching ngaji for children around their homes, women who always close the meeting her body with clothing syar'i, complete with the veil adorn the his face each is outside the home, much different than himself at that time more fashionable style style-Ala Korea. widya start digest sentence apology from yono, error which he should excuse? isn't he know if yono and aryu innocent the least. he himself refused invitation yono to marry the past three years after the equally college. and, a month later he heard if yono and aryu will go to Egypt after they were married. he was destroyed at that time. he began to judge aryu as women usurper, don't forget it chided yono as a man traitors. "we will return to Indonesia, wid," snapped yono breaking daydream widya. "Oh." only that the answer to widya before actually realize of reverie. "really? when?" appear happiness in the face widya. but, immediately he hide away in his heart. "the day after tomorrow we already in sidomukti," up yono with the tone of typical soft. almost widya screaming, Salto, kayang, run Sprint 200m in 5 seconds, and skip wonderful to penetrate the tile his room after hearing that. "well, i'll be waiting for you, eh ... I mean our family," replied widya without can hide the sense of excited and embarrassment. "prepare a vegetable ASEM and sambal Teri andalanmu, wid," said yono increasingly make nose widya inflate full happiness. "that much, I miss masakanmu, hopefully not keasinan such as the first," up yono accompanied tertawanya very familiar in ear widya. widya back lay his body in the bed her after video calls it ended up because yono farewell to move ningrum to the room was asleep. he grabbed roll and biting his lips. mind drift, his heart volatile, her heart pounding, and he began to close my eyes. knows what he felt, happiness overload him, his eyes re-open, views around for a view all of the contents of his room and stop on the Photo frame, located on the table makeup well as his desk. he got up and take a Photo frame and sit facing window his room. he gaze Photo collage in the frame with blank stare, photos four years ago in wedding reception Ratna, he saw himself with clothes in line with yono, Ratna with wedding dress, and of course aryu with the clothing syar'i complete with cadarnya. he also viewed the Photo both with aryu on the other hand collage, occasional he saw far out the window, there he clearly see window aryu. he began to tears longing. didekapnya Photo frame it. wind breezy dusk wiping tears from flowing from his eyes. sensation cool and cold menyergah cheeks start wet. he is so naive, he loves husband of his best friend, lover old still hasn't he could forget. he wanted to apologize to aryu. he wanted to all to hug her again. "you miss it?" suddenly only widya surprised with her mother's voice behind him. he soon wipes tears and looked at sayu to the direction of his mother. "do aryu receive maafku, mom?" hoarseness widya soon lost when his face sink into embrace his mother. "we all know aryu as a woman who character good, of course he forgive everyone ever guilty to him," said his mother calm. "there was already two years aryu leave US all," continued his mother who start a raucous hold crying. "hopefully heaven into place." and the two cry in Isak that stuck. unimaginable how aryu face the times of pain in the country away with the pain of her. and, with all the prejudice bad to it because labeled as women usurper after receiving calls married yono. widya not think if behind the nature of aryu cheerful, he save cancer in the body. he is survived for birth ningrum, little girl his eyes are very similar to the eye aryu. he remember a letter sent aryu for her two years ago. right day before her face birthday ningrum and make it a martyr hence. in addition to apology from him, he also leave the mandate to make his eyes open will kesalahnnya during this time. *** assalamualaikum widya my best friend ... hopefully I innocent writing unbeknownst to my husband. and may Allah forgive iniquity. I just want to apologize to you. it wid, nothing at all my intention to wrest yono from you. I also sorry for this never told me about my pain to you, Ratna, and yono. I also don't think if yono it turns out to know about this cancer. that night he came to my parents. he proposed to and also want to accompany me continuing studies to Egypt. i've been trying rejected because I know your relationship with her. yono continue to convince both my parents if his intention sincere and because God he wanted to marry, until we all received. i've been trying to explain to you. but, you choose lost with a sense of bencimu to me. tomorrow i'll surgery for the birth of our son. yono know if the level of success just below 20%. I really ikhlas if God called me after this. thank yono if one day he wanted to meminangmu. loved my son like your own. I hope you still be married. i'm sorry once again because it had a chance to be a barrier love you guys. from me that may keep you think of friends aryu *** back tears dripping heavy wetting cheek widya. indeed he wanted to embrace aryu profusely in prayer. apologize to all of prejudice bad. ^^ thank you