what it means I live?

I fell asleep at a time
My body is slammed in no direction
The wound attached to this chest
Can not be erased just like that
Too bad for me to go through
Too painful to feel

I can not say a word
It's tired of waiting for me
I want to close my eyes
Hope this is the end of my life
I can not hold it anymore
Holding every wound with a smile
Resist the chest with a firmness
The wound is too painful
Why should I live?
In the waves of this world
What does it mean to me to live?
If my life continues like this