When is enough , enough ?

in #wine4 years ago

I wrote like 3 different things and deleted them all .... I don’t know what to say anymore .... or how to say it ..... I feel lost ... I can’t take anymore bad news ... everyone thinks I’ve got my shit together .... but right now .... I’m falling apart !

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Sorry it’s been so long since I’ve stopped into steem and see you haven’t posted for a long while. After reading this post, I can’t help but feel like your not doing too well. I wish I could help, but know some things we have to face by ourselves. If there’s anything I can do to help, please let me know. So sorry you have to go through this crap. I wish you the. Eat at sorting it all out.

If you get back on, let me know your okay and how things are going. Hope all is okay. 🙂

Hello 👋, sorry to worry you. I’m okay. I’m actually really good . Went thru a few rough patches, but honestly I’m not even sure why. I’m overall healthy , my kids are good and everything else is okay. I did have a roughy time a few mo the ago...kind of bad new after bad news ... but it’s ok now .... last few days I have been over thinking things and kind of in a slump .... but realizing I just need to stop over thinking things ... and realize some thing I can’t control and some things I can’t take back .

Oh good. Happy to hear your well. We perfectionists have a hard time letting go of what we can not control. It has been an F'd up year.. for sure. Like always I wish you and your kids well. I am hoping things improve in general. Business has been fun (not) through this Covid mess, We lost Pepper a few months ago, and I have a very close cousin slowly suffering through her terminal cancer diagnosis. Lot of incontrollable things happening here in South Jersey too. I am really pissed that we are unable to get up to NYC this year for Christmas displays, shows, and Bryant park.. grrrr! Oh well.

I know how you feel. Sorry to hear about Pepper 😔 I know how much you loved Pepper. And sorry about your friend. I just had a loved one pass away recently from cancer and the restrictions due to covid made the situation that much worse. I know , the holidays just do not feel the same anymore. It’s actually a little sad when you think about it. But hopefully things will start to turn around soon enough for us both.