Happiness is one of the things that can fill the missing part of me, I guess.
Being with the people that you love, so you can really say that you are living,
I’ve been counting the days, asking myself if I am really blessed,
Now, let me tell you my story, in a way that you can hear it, and I hope you are all carefully listening.

Life has been playing on me like what other people do,
It doesn’t allow me to be free,
It doesn’t allow me to be true,
It’s like I could never be able to live my life the way I want to,
Cause everything’s a mess and that includes me too.

I’ve tried to fix myself, so I searched for people or even places that might help me,
And luckily, I have found someone, a person that really loves me,
He may not be want they have wanted,
He may not be want they have expected,
But he’s my man, my home, my escape in this cruel world, even though we’re not really accepted.

Years have passed we were still together,
I believe we were safe for a long time, but chance was a very good destroyer,
Caught by unknown, I knew that my secret is soon to be revealed,
I was prepared for what is coming, but I was not prepared for the pain that it will make me feel.

Lost and gone, I was breaking down, slowly.
They took away my love! They took away the person that’s been keeping me alive!
The whispering words inside my head are now killing me!
Not only mentally, but also emotionally!
I don’t know what I was doing, but I felt I was drowning and ready to dive in.

It was dark, and my thoughts were trying to make me do something,
It says that I should end this!
It says that I should unload what I have been keeping!
I saw a knife, a scissor, and a cutter,
“What did I do with those things”?
Well, I almost, almost killed myself, but I wanted to keep my heart beating..

Tears keep on dropping, I found myself crying,
With thoughts that somehow, made me realized,
”This is not me! This is not what God would want me to be!”
So wiped my tears, kneeled down and began praying.

“Sorry if I’ve been reckless and been feeling lost,
But my eyes are open, my heart and mind know I can overcome this,
For there is a chance, a hope, and another day for me that will rise each morning,
Like a sunrise that gives light to darkness after the night’s phase, and you’ll finally see me again, shining”

Photo Credit | Pixaybay

Thanks for reading!!!

😘@mhizsophie

@lovejuice is Paying 20 USD Worth of Steem or SBD for Quality Submissions!