Self Harm For My Numbness

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At first...
I don't really understand why there are people who cut their wrists and end their lives just because of some problems.
Whenever I see someone who have marks on their wrists, I always think that they do it just for attention.
Attention-seekers.

But it is indeed true, what they have said, that you wouldn't understand one thing you have no experience in.

Have you ever experience that moment you felt like there's a sudden pain in your chest?
You don't know where it came from,
How did it begin.
That excruciating pain, you know you cannot handle it.
This is when self-harming enters the scene.
You want to know if it hurts more than the pain you feel internally.
But no matter how many cuts you make, no matter how much blood dripped from your wrists, truth is, you're numb.
You can't feel how much a literal wound hurts because it is overpowered by the pain you feel on the inside.

It's easy to say,

"Everything will be alright."
"You can get through it!"
"Just pray."

Yet it's inexplicably hard when you're the one in the situation.
It is that kind of hard when you want to commit suicide for it to just come to an end.
So you will not be sad or in pain anymore.
You can finally take your time to rest.
Peacefully.
Forever.

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