Of course it would have been selfish. The anger that I didn't die? That was written so to represent how I felt THAT MOMENT, which was over 3 years ago.

I obviously do not feel that way today. I am extremely grateful to be alive and I cherish every day.

I'm sorry to hear about your dad. It must be tough :{

I had gone through a massive depression for months after getting clean that caused me to go into a manic state, which is why I did what I did.

I would never do it again because I know how serious and how terrible it would be for everyone I love - plus, I love life way too much.

Thanks for wriiting this, but I think you have what you read confused - like I said, I felt angry the day AFTER attempting to kill myself - this is not a current reflection of my feelings, as today I am so grateful that I wake up each morning.

Cheers!