RE: I Gave Up And Attempted Suicide - Twice - Part 1 (Celebrating 6 months Clean TODAY!)
I don't mean to sound like a dick, but someone has to say this as my dad killed himself when I was 4 but, Isn't that story really selfish, and only looking at life from a, take what I can point of view? I get it's your life and that, but like you said, you have a family that cared about you enough to offer you a room and money for a macbook? Random people don't do this for no reason? And you were angry you didn't die? The thing is we all want to die at some point, but it's family and friends that keep us going. Even if they aren't around us at the time? I've been addicted to alcohol and drugs (I'm clean now) and not once when I was battling depression did I think of actually going through with it, as I couldn't bare to put that on my mum and brother. I would happily live in the state of depression to the point of the thought of suicide numbs the pain, as the thought of leaving my mother and brother behind was a million times worse!
Of course it would have been selfish. The anger that I didn't die? That was written so to represent how I felt THAT MOMENT, which was over 3 years ago.
I obviously do not feel that way today. I am extremely grateful to be alive and I cherish every day.
I'm sorry to hear about your dad. It must be tough :{
I had gone through a massive depression for months after getting clean that caused me to go into a manic state, which is why I did what I did.
I would never do it again because I know how serious and how terrible it would be for everyone I love - plus, I love life way too much.
Thanks for wriiting this, but I think you have what you read confused - like I said, I felt angry the day AFTER attempting to kill myself - this is not a current reflection of my feelings, as today I am so grateful that I wake up each morning.
Cheers!