RE: Das Buch, das noch geschrieben werden muß - geht weiter! / The book that still has to be written - continues!
I hope it helps in some way to feel better by opening up. It's hard and it will always be. Somehow it will find a place near or within you just like with me. Like you I left at the age of 15. It was tough but the best thing I have done for me. Each day I still feel relieved. Time heals? Not with me but I can live with it and have a satisfying life with a place of my own, to be, I can leave and... I still fight back.
Once I was offered to come back home under the conditions I was the maid. I could study after 12 pm/midnight and get at work at 5 am. I said 'no thank you' and never returned. I once escaped and nearly died, never again.
I take my hat off for you
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P. S. I can relate to what you said about being stronger/more energetic if in fight modus. I feel that too plus more alive.
Time doesn't heal anything. And I confess, I'm not good at forgiving and pardoning... I've tried with any kinds of therapy - without an effect. The only way to not become depressive is to stay satisfied and happy for myself.
Why should you forgive to bring relieve to others? I don't see any point in it. It's just words snd even if meant it can change any minute or afterb5, 10, 20 years. It feels like denying myself not a relievr or method to continue.
So do what is good for you snd if you feel you get depressed tell yourself you have the right to. Set a time you can keep the curtains closed, the door locked and can hide underneath the duvet.
It was a hard life, a ling journey and it still is. So sllow yourself to pity yourself for 2-3 days and after that you (and I) kick our arse, we shower, drink tea and eat chocolate and are ready to go.
No therapist can help with this.
A warm embrace to you - reiki touch.
A good weekend dear.
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Refreshingly direct. Thank you!