I am totally insecure.

I hope you understand that this is an unfortunate coincidence. It so happened that it was your fate to encounter a rather new and dangerous disease of sheep. Perhaps many generations of shepherds have not gone through something like you. It's not your fault. It's natural to be insecure, but it's better for the sheep that you pull yourself together and adopt this approach:

But we continue to hope optimistically!

That's much better 🙂. I wish you that your flock of sheep grows, but not so much that you are completely exhausted 😄