I am deeply sorry for everything that you are going through. Your strength and potential in sharing your story and seeking proper solutions is admirable. It's okay to feel lost, but remember you're not alone. Most people care and are willing to support you. Keep reaching out and seeking help. Stay strong for yourself and your dogs, and the other people who are in worse condition than you, and take things one step at a time. Everything will be fine. Time to heal all wounds. Brighter days will come.