Before reading this I had no idea I could shut it off, but I do know there are people around me that feed off of it like vampires and I try to put up walls when they are around but it usually fails. For me it often manifests into hatred and angry but after years of severe depression once I got back from the war I think that’s all I could do anymore is manifest hate. That’s certainly not true but I think a big part I deal with too is that people will be able to see that deep down I’m not a good person. Thanks for this post