You are only beyond repair if that's your believe,
I hope this isn't too close to reality
and this was more fiction than what you feel to be your 'reality'.

Your 'reality' is just a repeated belief
and a belief is a repeated thought
Thoughts can be changed
or looked at differently

I know it's easier said than done ( I'm still a work in progress myself, daily work ) but you will feel better, if you just believe you can and accept the way things are, the person that you are.

You are perfect the way you are but change is definitely possible, in fact it happens all the time :>)

Big hug!