Let you shine

Dear Haters,

There are people I hated growing up. There are people that hated me growing up. Our hatred was equal. In the end, we are friends now. I feel like our knowledge of hate towards one another during grade school feel NOW like we’ve known each other forever.

I used to say I hated “Brittany”, she was my arch nemesis. I do have a flair for theatrics — sure. But three years ago I saw her at a party and we laughed together. She laughed at my jokes. I complimented her hair cut. She was beautiful, like she always was. Maybe I was just envious of that growing up?

I don’t know her anymore really. But I don’t hate her. I don’t miss her. I really don’t care about her life. I am sure she somewhat feels the same about mine. But I appreciate her memory. And always from afar I am rooting her on. I hope she manifests the best life possible. I hope her well — I hope her happy. I hope she is full of love and warmth.

When I was 14; I just saw the here and now. I couldn’t see further than that. I am suppose to be a visionary! So I decided to look further in my life now. I healed from my past, or I am continuously healing from the trauma I went through. I am finally using my voice.

There’s parts of the past I’ve been able to heal from lately. And I am so happy. Digging around in my past has lead me to much understanding and resilience. It’s also let me feel happier and free from this trapped emotions that I stored deep down down inside me.

It feels good to express and to come alive. We ALL have truths to uncover, we all have hardships to endure. If you haven’t gone through anything yet... hold on, it’s coming.

Life doesn’t let us escape alive. It doesn’t let ANYONE live a life that is SO POSH that it is free of problems. Everyone has trauma, everyone has barrier and obstacles to over climb. No one person obstacle is bigger than another’s. it’s just another perspective on life. And we were chosen for this perspective.

But we can choose to drift, ignore our buried desire, burry our hidden secrets — and drift to a life of normalcy. And I am climbing out of that drift out of my comfort zone. I have a heart of fire and I want to see how big it can explode.

We ALL have that inside out. Let it out.

Let you shine.